Have you ever had one of those days where you just want to put on a pair of headphones, turn them up loud and ignore EVERYONE!?!? That's me today. I am a bad mom today. I will rightfully admit it because it is rightfully so. Every thought in my head, every action I have made is probably insanely controversial.
They were so horrible yesterday. They wouldn't listen, they whined, they cried, they fought. An entire day was spend dealing with their shit! And not just a tiny bit of shit...nope, never ending LOADS of shit. And today....it just keeps piling up.
"He touched me!"
"I don't want to watch that movie!"
"I had that green Lego square first!"
"She won't help me clean my room!"
"I'm hungry!"
"I'm thirsty!"
"The moon is not aligned correctly and Mars is not nearly close enough to Jupiter!"
SERIOUSLY!!!!
Whining, crying, fighting!!!! Where is my closet and where is my pillow? I need to lock myself away and just scream till I lose my voice.
I want to work on my book, but the noise won't stop. I want to take a shower, but I'm afraid they'll destroy my each other, or worse, my house! (Destroying one another would, in the end, provide silence would it not? In this case I fear for my house more!) I want to be a good mom, but they are making it impossible this week.
So I scream, I yell, I spank, I cry. All the proper ingredients for one of those "Bad Mommy's"!!! By blogging definition, I am one of the worst. Except sadly I am on a diet and can't even drink it all away! (But I WANT to!)
So I want a break. A day without family. Because I am sorry, I can not be one of those perfect moms who loves her kids 24/7 and can't go more than a few hours away from them. I envy those mothers, really I do. But I am just not one of them. I like week long vacations that don't involve my kids. And I LOVE weekends away from them AND my husband (not that's I've ever had one, I've only fantasized about it) I want me time. Not them time.
So screw the Kt Kat...break me off a piece of SILENCE!!!!
**I apologize for any rude or offensive material in this post, BUT I did try to hold back and this IS my blog for venting. One can not be all proper and practically perfect ALL the time.**
3 comments:
And no one should ever expect you to be perfect all the time. You're human!
I can't even begin to say that I know how you feel, because I don't...not at all. But I've had my own share of days of wanting to get away from everything, husband included. Days when I'm driving to work and fantasize about not getting off the exit that will take me there, about driving on that highway until I end up somewhere else. Somewhere far away from everything.
I'm sorry you're dealing with such frustrations right now and hope you get your moment (or preferably, much longer than a moment) of silence ASAP!!
I've had those days. I've got 4 kids and I remember wanting to pull my hair out. I wasn't trying to write back then, but I sure do remember wanting to away from it all! Life is not easy with little ones. Mine are older and all I can say is, things get better. Things get easier. And one day you will look back and wish for a few of those "little kids" days. ;) Hard to imagine right now, I know. lol I'm gonna be praying for some peace for you!
Thanks girls. I hope I find a moment too!
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