We make many choices in life. Some are good some are bad. Nearing my thirties (more quickly than I would prefer) I do my best to make the best decisions for me and my family. Unfortunately some of those decisions don't always make me happy. Although I know they are the best for my over all health and stability, it doesn't always mean I like them.
I've made a few decisions to cut some once very close friends out of my life in the last two years. I know it was for the best, for me and some for my marriage, but I have these days, like today, where I just miss these people immeasurably. I ache just thinking about it! But I KNOW I made the best decision by ending these friendships, at least I think I did?!?!
I'd love to go into the details about why I made these decisions, well who am I fooling, actually I'd really rather not. Long drawn out stories can get really boring and I'm not one that prefers to share many of life's depressing details. (Numerous though they may be)
So how do I make the pain go away? How do I stop missing these people who in many instances had a tendency to make me equally as miserable? Especially when there were many times when they did not. How do I stop wanting to be their for my former best friend as she begins to raise her first child? How do I stop missing friends that we hung out with CONSTANTLY at this very same time last year? How do I make it go away?
Sometimes I really hate making the right choices! Although I live a life where I am STILL paying for making so many wrong choices, it's hard to forget how much I enjoyed making them.
It's kinda like, "You're damned if you do, You're damned if you don't" isn't it.
3 comments:
I don't know if there is a way to make the pain go away completely...especially when, no matter what else they did, those people still meant a lot to you. You care, no matter what, and it's hard to stop caring (and I don't know if it's necessarily a good thing to stop caring...even if it feels like it would make life a lot easier).
I'm glad I get to stick around though :)
Loves and hugs!
I've had to deal with some of these same types of feelings. You love these "friends" but they aren't the best for you or your life/family life. It's not easy. You always question yourself in situations like these, but ultimately doing the right thing (no matter how much it sucks sometimes) will turn out okay. Life is often times bittersweet. Sometimes though, life will throw you a few new friends (or even events/situations) that make your life feel a little better at times.
Jessica...I'm glad YOU stuck around. LOL And you even know how completely crazy I am!!!!
CMOM...well said from a perfectly life thrown new friend!!!
You girls rock!!!
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