I'm not talking about a baseball field...I'm not talking about a Lego City...I'm talking about stress.
My life has been crazy stressful lately. I don't write about it because I don't want to complain. I don't complain because I don't want to irritate. I don't irritate because I feel lonely and I don't want to lose...friends, followers, readers...anyone.
My book is a slight mess. I wanted opinions...I got too many (and good ones too) and now I don't know what to do with it. So I'm contemplating just submitting what I have to the agent who wants my full and calling it good for awhile. Maybe I'll read up on some books about craft, dive into my other story a little more, or even start the second book.
My life is a bit of a mess as well...but I won't go into that.
My head is an on and off again mess....but that's a bit complicated also.
CLEAN UP ON ISLE FIVE ANYONE????
So here's my question in more detail...These messes...well they create stress....and the stress keeps building and building. It's like I'm building a big stress empire in my little feeble mind here. AND I AM THE RULER!!! Bwahahahahaha (Sorry....couldn't stop myself there)
So if I keep building these stresses, will He come? Because I don't FEEL like He's here. I pray and I pray and I ask Him for help and answers...and I sit back and I listen. I really do listen...but I don't here Anything. Do I need to turn up my hearing aids? Did I miss a phone call? Is my radio up too loud? Is my base ball diamond not big enough for him to walk out onto my imaginary field of stress and hopelessness? Is it because I didn't go to Church last Sunday? Cuz I totally wanted to, but well, He knows what happened. UGH!!!
Have I lost you yet? :)
Any advice? What do you do when you've ran out of hope? Do you just keep swimming? What keeps you positive?
7 comments:
He's already come and has been hanging out with you during all the hopelessness. Sometimes we can't see or feel Him and it's okay. He's there anyway. Sometimes there is just silence. And that's okay too. The best thing to do is to pray...duh...and stay in the Word. He can speak through the printed word and there is hope throughout those words. I know it is all stuff you have heard before, but there is no magic formula. That is where faith comes in.
Oh my...am I preaching again? I usually let my husband do that!!! :) I am praying for you, girl. :)
Thanks Sherrinda...sometimes it's just hard to see he's there. And preach away. This blog is for no holding back! :D
Dear, dear, dear Mary:
You are so loved and cherished. "The Lord longs to be gracious to you; He rises to show you pity." Is. 30:18
When I feel hopeless, I go to the Psalms and stay there until I am full. I write some nourishing ones on index cards and put them in the bathroom, where i go often-- I drink a lot of coffee, you see.
Because my dad recently died, I am contemplating life more than usual, and I think I know what counts most: loving people. If I publish a book or ten, yippee dippee! If I am rich, I can help many people, another yippee! But if I want to make earth more peaceful and Heaven fuller, I just smile more, say 'thank you' more, and tell people I love or appreciate them.
Eat more ice cream. That helps immensely.
And try not to worry so much. This life is really short.
I love you, and I will pray for your life to be simpler. Please, dear Jesus, hold my sister in your arms, and let her feel your love. Not just know it in her brain, but feel it in her guts. Let it make a difference in how she sees herself and her life. Please. And don't delay; she needs you today. In your blessed name, Amen.
Blessings,
Jeanette Levellie
Audience of ONE
Thank You Jeanette. It is so nice to be reminded that I am not alone :) Sometimes it's just so much easier to feel hopeless. My goal is to one day have faith like yours!
When I get like that, I remember the Chevy Chase movie Vacation.....with each new day comes new hope. Tomorrow will get better and have a different perspective!
Oh, dear, don't shoot so low. You want faith like Jesus, not me.
I had a very rough day yesterday, and wanted to fall off the earth, so you see, i was on the other end of your teeter-totter, dear one.
It's always easier for me to encourage someone else than to pull myself out of the pit.
I'm sure that's why God put us in a body, and allowed the invention of the blog!
Love you,
Jen
Audience of ONE
See Isaiah 30:18
When I'm down I try to remember two things: Remember things could be worse and I've got to keep going no matter what.
Getting a book published is hard on the ego. I know it's hard to do, but try and think of it as a process. It's a process for both you and your book.
I wish you well and I hope to hear good news about your book soon.
Best,
Cristina
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