I'm feeling a bit glum today. It's probably just because I am tired, although it could also be just because of life. Funny how I sat and tried to convince my husband that all it takes to be happy is just wanting to be happy. I've been trying to do that myself all week. But it's sad that he's not happy, while in reality, I'm not really happy either.
Something is missing.
Ever feel that way?
I truly miss last summer. I miss the friends. I miss the fun.
I also miss other friends still, but we've already gone over that.
And I'm in a rut with this book/writing thing. After reading Rachelle Gardner's post yesterday I am now thoroughly convinced I am not ready for publishing. That really dampers the spirits. I've worked my whole life to be something and it's not working very well.
(Reality Bites Flash Back, "Honey, all you have have to be by the age of 23 is yourself!")
Unfortunately I'm 28!
(When Harry Met Sally Flash Back, Sally, "And I'm gonna be 40!!!" Harry,"When?" Sally, "Someday!!!")
It seems like we live in a world surrounded by everything and anything that can provide instant gratification. Patience is impossible when everything else seems to be right at your finger tips. I want to work hard and become a New York Times best selling Author, but I am so caught up in wanting it NOW that my mind has gone blank, my writing has become sloppy, and my mood is a lingering pile of stress covered in a lack of self confidence.
The next thing you know I am going to be rolling around like a big fat blueberry!!! (That would be a Charlie and the Chocolate Factory Flash back..."I want it all NOW!!!")
And this...if any of this has made sense...is part of the reason I am feeling glum today. But it's probably mostly lack of sleep ;)
3 comments:
Happy is overrated.
The thing that's missing is heaven and someday THAT will be a party!
An encouragement to enjoy writing in the process. This may be the only time in life you can sneak around with your writing, tickle it, laugh at it...a true honeymoon stage. Love the heck out of it now before it gets old and grey. (Although I insist to my husband I'll still be chasing him around when he's that way...who am I kidding...he's already grey!) :D Just a thought.
~ Wendy
I'm sorry you're feeling glum, dear. Easy for me to say, but don't give up! I know you're talented, and hopefully, sooner than later, an agent will figure that out too!
And I miss last summer too :(
Loves ya!
Patience on things that you want the most is the hardest patience to achieve! I'm with you! Trying to take things as they come and be happy and not just depressed and frustrated is always easier said than done, but it is possible I'm sure!
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