Ok maybe not so warped...but slightly twisted. There are days where I am on top of the world, then there are days like today...where the world is weighing heavily on top of me.
The irony of it all...nothing is really wrong.
Life isn't really that bad. Great kids, great husband (mostly) and not much to complain about really. But I am just not with it today. Just not happy. Just not content.
Welcome to the wonderful world of being Bi-Polar! And sadly, this is controlled and well managed Bi-Polar. I take my meds every day and I go to counseling, yet I still am very discontent with my mediocre life. Oh wait...hadn't I just said it was Great? Well in theory it is....but in my little head...it's merely mediocre.
Why?
Well it's kinda complicated really. Probably just because I'm an idiot...or maybe because I am ungrateful...possibly even because I incapable of happiness. Or maybe I'm just a victim of random tragedies in a world without a true heroine (not the drug...heroine...as in hero...which my life is greatly lacking)
Give me a week....once someone notices it, I'll more than likely delete this blog. But until then, I thought it might be nice to just let it all out. Get up on my Soap Box and expose my insanity if you will. It could be interesting....right??? Well at the very least...maybe it will release some tension and stress. Everyone needs to vent sometimes!
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