There was a princess. (I love being a princess) and she started this new website in hopes of helping others understand her illness a little better. She THOUGHT it was a really good idea....it was supposed to be really good idea, but for some reason it left her stressed and feeling overwhelmed. Every negative comment cut like broken glass. Poor traffic days left her feeling like she wasn't making a difference and the difficulty of getting the word out there without pissing people off sent her over the edge.
And that's where I lie today...dangling over the edge. I don't want to stop the website, but all the negative things are bringing me down. I feel like my moods shift by the success of each days post. That's not how it was supposed to be...why did it turn that way?
Maybe I'm just down. Maybe I'm just crazy. Maybe I'm just trapped in an unhappy mind while strapped down to floating log in the river of never ending funk. Funks are not my favorite.
This funk I am in is not fun. Why can't I get the happy manic moments that everyone else gets? Instead everything everyone/anyone says that is negative in the tiniest bit makes me want to cry today. Why?
And why do I get hurt so easily?
And am I cut out to do this website? Am I cut out for all the negative?
(Memo...I'm not GOING to stop the website...today I just want to...jut like I want to run away and just like I want to go lock myself in a closet.)
6 comments:
I know I would have the same feelings if I posted a website like that. Hang in there. BTW, I love your new layout here.
I saw this posted on FB today and felt it. "Many times, the right thing to do isn't necessarily the easiest. Sometimes it's actually the toughest. Do it anyway." I thought you might feel it today too. <3 In the meantime, I'll search from some DeFunk spray. Hang in there Mb!
I'm so sorry you're feeling that way. If it helps even in the tiniest way, please know how much your post today meant to me. I hope it wasn't the straw that broke the camel's back... I'd hate for it to have done that :( I love you dear!! Let me know if you want to talk at all.
Sorry this day sucked so much, hang in there girl, sending you hugs!!!!
Please don't be discouraged! You website and page are awesome and help so many people!
I know bad days can be rough,but persevere it will be worth it!
BIG HUGS Catherine
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