I've considered getting back into journaling lately. I used to write almost every day all the way through the age of 19. When I read them now I kinda laugh and roll my eyes wishing I'd known then what I know now.
Today is one of those days where I wish I know now what I'll know another 10 years down the road. It's not that I want to predict the future. I just wish I knew everything was going to be okay. It seems everyone (me included) is struggling with life quite a bit lately. Will we all be okay eventually?
I do know the answer to that. It's the same answer I'd tell 19 year old me if I had asked. Yes ... it'll be okay. It's always the same answer. My problems from 12 years ago have passed and worked themselves out. I worried about be being pregnant and becoming a mom. Now I have worry about surviving that child through her teen years. My mom made it through with me though, so I'm pretty sure I'll get through it with her.
No matter what age we are at, there are always going to be struggles. Some will be huge, some will be small. But that doesn't change the fact that it's hard. It doesn't change the fact that sometimes hugs don't make the issues go away and knowing it will be alright doesn't make it feel better at the time.
I don't even know where I'm going with any of this. All I know is I hope I look back on this post a year later and smile knowing I got through it. Cuz I'll tell you what, changing jobs and being in between paychecks REALLY sucks.
That's all.
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