Craving to Be Normal!!

More than I would like a million dollars...

More than I would like a big beautiful house...

More than I would like to be a published author (ok...well not THAT much more...but a little)

More than I would like just about anything...

I just want to be normal. I'd like my brain to function properly on a daily basis. I'd like to stop having so many bad days. I've come to the conclusion that life is truly against me. Even my mom has said that I have to go through more stuff than most people.

If it can go wrong ... it does.

I'm the exception to EVERY rule!

Teenage pregnancy? Why not!

Rocky Marriage? Don't mind if I do!

Money problem? Sounds like a party!

Child with BiPolar? Fabulous!

Crappy house with a crappy landlord after losing my last crappy house to foreclosure? Absolutely! That will be a blast!

Problems keeping friends due to my own BiPolar insanity? What a great idea!

Regrets as high as the sky? Fun times!

Incapability to feel confident about my writing thus being unable to score an agent? (Or does my writing really suck...hmmmm...) Wouldn't miss it for the world!

Seriously. This is not normal. I am not normal. I suppose in some ways that's great and all, but really ... I'm not sure how much more I can take. And every time it looks like things are going to get better, they get worse!

I can't blog lately. I don't have anything funny to say or even anything positive for that matter. I am upset all the time. I'm stressed out about money, my marriage, my poor little boy going through all the same stuff, my house, my writing, my grandmother, and my sanity and I am trying so hard to keep it all to myself because at the very same time I feel like if I lose it I'll lose all my friends again just like before!

So if someone could please catch me a break......that would be GREAT!